Where am I???

Man! I feel like I've been around the world and not quite back.
Though my sphere of influence has always been right here, I haven't moved anywhere, I find myself in a completely new, but old at the same time, community.
Still I consider the apostle Paul. He was converted, spent years away from his hometown learning and growing the the Lord Jesus Christ. Then he eventually came back to his hometown and preached the Lord Jesus there. Yes, that is what I feel has happened here. To some degree...certainly not the apostle Paul and have certainly not been through the hardships he endured.
Leading church in our home was a really neat time. Wow. Had no clue the spiritual level that it takes you to. The target on your back becomes like a red hot, flashing light for a bulls eye. Dang! Wow. Seriously. Did not quite expect the level of spiritual warfare that goes down.
Also during this time though, God taught us so much. Trust Him, rely on Him for everything. Everything. He never left us. It felt like a hot, hotter than hot and dry desert. During this time we realized that if we were to go into ministry we best make our calling sure. This stuff isn't for sissy's. And its probably a good idea to go about it the right way. A core of believers surrounding you is very important for encouragement and just simply praying for the needs from within. Still such a season of learning and growth.
Its been amazing and humbling to sit still, rest in Him, and be completely subject to His guidance. The awesome thing is when you come to a place of running out of yourself, being so completely alone, He takes over. He will NOT take second place even to our best efforts of what we think is the good and right thing. Not every good thing is His thing.
Now we find ourselves at a very unconventional place of worship. We would have never tried it before having gone through this season. I know its sad to say, for so many reasons. Its neat to see God guide us, and really comfort us as a faithful Father. This church is young, many exciting things going on in the lives of those who come there. I pray that the Lord is exalted among these people that they would see God for all of His magnificence and that they would know He desires great, great things for them. I pray that God would use us to help shine His presence, to be His vessel for all that I know He desires to do there. I pray that my husband and I would remain still, and sit awhile as we wait for Him to move. That our mouths wouldn't speak unless He would have it. I pray that anytime our mouths do open that it would bring ministry, comfort, healing, wisdom, His presence to those who earnestly seek Him.
We don't know what tomorrow holds. We wait, we pray, we seek Him. Will my husband further his medical career as planned a year ago once he has his bachelors by the fall? Will he feel called, assuredly, to ministry? We won't move until He makes it clear. Until then we will be who He has called us to be where He has called us to. We hope you pray for us as well as our oikos...